I know I should trust the process, but like most of us, I’m type A and want to control the things I can control, haha.
The only thing you can control is your preparation. To be best prepared, it’s best to “trust the process”. Our plans postpone the weighted carries until underlying fitness has been improved. You’ll do better in the end if you start without weight and add it later. You’ll be able to start by moving faster and then add weight later. For most, the end result is a faster pace with weight than by starting heavy (and practicing going slow).